Today I know
I was supposed to look into your eyes and tell you everything you’ve done for me, finally show I’m carrying you in every cell, in every breath, even when I’m lying to myself.
Today I know
I was supposed to be strong enough not to faint and be the first to look you in the eyes, the first to reach out for lips, the first to show that I want you.
Today I know
I was supposed to admit all my faults, surrender all my pride, and take my chances at you walking over me, knowing the only chance I cannot take is refusing my love.
Today I know
I was supposed to be, for once, the best of me in front of you. How did I ended up showing you the beast of me?
Today I know
I have failed.
Failed you, failed love, and failed myself. Souls like mine are banished even from hell.
